always think "x" or "and" all the words phrases and hear things that are housed completely in a corner of our brain.
Right now I fully comes to mind phrases Shakira ditty says:
" My days without you are so dark, so long as gray, my days without you, my days without you are so absurd, so bitter, so hard, my days without you, my days without you , no nights, if one appears, it is useless, sleep, my days without you are a waste, hours have no beginning and no end so short of air, so full of nothing I have a useless trash on the floor, flies in the house my days without you are like a sky, without silvery moons, nor traces of the sun, my days without you are only an echo, always repeat the same song so short of air, so filled with nothing, useless junk, trash on the floor, flies in the house, kicking the stones, I'm still waiting to return with me, I'm still looking at the faces, old pieces of children, wedding reasons that make me believe that I am still alive, eating my fingernails, drowning in tears, missing you So my days without you, my days without you, my days without you, as painful day without you, without you, without you. "
That song set to my situation, exactly 365 days, I left my house like they did every day, never imagined that half cold and cloudy morning, was to be the worst week of my life.
I got up later that day, rushed for lost time caused by my irresponsible of me asleep most of the account, I do not even pay for breakfast let alone pay more attention to my father, I asked the blessing, nor kiss , which at the time, but the urgency was such that I did not feel free to lose more time, thinking about getting along with my works, I would say life that morning was the last in which I would get sound from the voice of my father, would have heat through your skin, would be able to watch their great look.
Arriving at my workplace, so good, that day I had not simply I wanted to do everything full of wonder and super fast to give me time to do everything.
That day happened to be the first day that my father would attend to the store and that taking advantage of the traveled way to lunch and we do several things.
A message said or left hand between his interest to see how I had gone on the trip, quickly responding well, I was right, I called the time expires the same time, when neither the head I went to was the last time I read something posted by him.
A call as 30 minutes after read the message sent by my father, my morning would make the worst experienced in my life until now.
was my grandfather, I said I was flying home, because my father had gone bad, not bad, just had died.
A sudden attack was what I separate my real hero of my life, my interests, my dream, my being, my soul, my ideas, my rebellion, my courage, my learning everything he did it was an interesting person and an educated person was leaving me, I was staying just blank, empty, without desire.
It goes well without you, it goes both within this being, in this soul, this shell, but without you, I have no more reason to be happy, I have no reason to smile, thank fully to life by allowing me to live for allowing me to be healthy, for letting me have my hand to the other pillar and another column of my life and healthy pace and "my mother", but it does not make sense without you, you were too beast, you were great person to be true, never thought that you idolize so much that you crave.
never let you really see that life wanted to be like you, but is that being as you were, and that is that I am what I am today by the same rebellion that taught me at times, was never really let you see if you stop, that if I learned everything you taught me that if I train as you wanted, that has not yet cornered everything you asked for, and otherwise, but if I did a lot of what you wanted, as I also do not ever forgive the fact of not doing everything exactly as you said and as you wanted in due time.
For that is human to err and to learn, which was Gafo, or rather typed, as he said it once, something that without lying, for life within me and made me much more armor "That fool you into believing that everything can be like you and people it will adapt to your requirements ", that I will never forget, is that the injured party, but the only thing that plot was opening my eyes as much openness as possible, and you had every reason and for a fool, because no no other word I did not realize at the time.
Thanks to life that let me be like you, not that it is the same, but I have a lot of you, some congenital and the other just acquired, learned or programmed.
I start to think a little of my way, so crazy, I'm fried today and I think that we do when we really have little time to execute, to react and think really good.
I even start to think that video ever saw the two together laughing, one in which the father of an embalmed after giving dude a heart attack, that it was clearly a joke, but that would be terrific to be able to do that, at least you would look in full every day, not imaginary.
occasionally need to hear your voice, and that is why I shoot several videos for one of the hard disk of the PC
is good to remember good healing, channeling, I know this is not quite right, but it is inevitable for all who were, for all that you were is clearly impossible to forget, get you out of mind to stop thinking of you daily, out of my mouth, my fingers, back-up plan in quiet mode, everybody understands that I'm fine, but no, this was the year more bad habit of my life, honestly I have had moments laughter, passion, desires, hustle, success, failures, like everyone, but honestly this has been a year in which I inhabited a body without a soul without a body.
day I hope that they are coming all change in plan "slowly" but necessary, and I also need full spread of sound wave of affection for the people he has given me their love and affection unconditionally, I need to give back to life all the privileges that it has given me.
need to do a thousand and one reasons to get more strength to my mother to follow in his plan to renew and "clean slate."
cries I request you to guide me, give me wisdom, that your both tapeworms and especially me reason to make my life something similar to what it was.
A big kiss my father, a few hugs and tickle those you are so annoyed and consequently brought many tickle me.
sleep thinking about you today, to see if in my dreams I see you. I LOVE YOU.
"1st. NOT HAPPY ANNIVERSARY OF YOUR GAME "
